Saturday, February 5, 2011

Looking Back...the Year Behind and Looking Forward...The Year Beyond

Towards the end of 2009, while in Dar Es Salaam in Tanzania, I got an unexpected email having been told I volunteers are not eligible for fellowship. Surprisingly, I got confirmation about the short course I applied for including a full scholarship in the Netherlands. This started a good year ahead of me in 2010. This was just one of the blessings I received last year.

At the beginning of 2010, I got busy with the preparation for my trip to the Netherlands. Indeed, a good start because while I was attending the short course, I saw a job advertisement from MandENews, an on-line group of M&E practitioners I am subscribed to, for a UNV volunteer post in Viet Nam as M&E Officer. I was hesitant to apply having nine more months to complete as VSO volunteer with Caritas Chipata in Zambia. A place and work I have grown to love. However, I still decided to try my luck. After on-line test and interview, I got the post in Viet Nam. A major blessing for two reasons, first, I have long wanted to work in Viet Nam and second, a post which I have longed for a long time.

All these major blessings I received were shared with my manong. He has been with me in all these successes, supportive of what I have achieved although the setback of everything, I have to leave him in Zambia. With a good plan and everything about our relationship properly arranged and discussed, nothing seemed to matter but grab all the opportunities that have fallen into my path.

Middle of the year, I moved to Viet Nam keeping with me all the promises of how my relationship would continue. Full of expectations and idealism, I started living a life and working in Viet Nam. Never had I thought that it would be full of challenges. Adjustment was difficult, particularly my living environment, coming from Zambia where people were so friendly and warm. I have to navigate myself and find my bearing on my own both personally and professionally.

The first month was very good; the second month was still fine until the end of the year, my love life turned upside down. Coping up was difficult for me; I demanded more time and attention from my boyfriend which was something he couldn’t understand. Work-wise, I have to get into the system I was never used to. The work-pace, the depth of work, the people and the ladder I have to step into.

The neighborhood was not so friendly as I thought and I was used to, talking to people was difficult where language has become a barrier, navigating was hard, support system was out of reach, I came alone and I have to survive on my own. For so many times, I asked myself if I made the right choice of moving to Viet Nam.

Life became more difficult as months passed by, I sulked in my miseries. There was never a week when I didn’t cry no matter how hard I tried to console myself or think positively. However, I struggled to have a good disposition and positive outlook. It was a difficult fight but I managed to reconcile with my inner self and started to see the light, to be thankful of the blessings I had for 2010. God has given me the opportunities I have prayed for a long time in His time and this has made me think of the good things that happened to me.

Looking back, I would say that it was a good year for me, full of blessings which made me stronger and braver. Looking beyond, despite mum’s failing health condition at the beginning of the year; I still look forward to another wonderful year ahead of me.

An Introduction for 2011

This is my first post for 2011 with a promise that I will be posting more in the following days, weeks and months to come...

Saturday, December 4, 2010

International Development Work

International Development Work takes us to many places and gives us the opportunity to meet a lot of people, from different countries and diverse culture. We build friendships and establish relationships. But at a certain point in time, we say goodbye, au revoir, paalam, tiza onana, tam viet...etc. etc. Though some maintains the friendship and relationship despite the distance while some last as long as we are together in the same country.

This reflection is a result of an email I got from a Brazilian friend I left in Zambia. She and her husband are still there but might be leaving soon. She was updating me about what is happening in Chipata, the small province in the Eastern part of Zambia where I used to live, and among her stories this line struck me...I think I will never get used to this rotation of friendship. Whenever we make good friends and get acquainted to the new environment, either they or we have to move." This is one of the realities of international development work, however, it makes the world smaller. What is important is how we keep the friendship...how we are inspired by the lessons we learned from that place and appreciate the experience we had.

To all of you my friends who have cherished the memories and have kept the friendship and relationship despite the distance, thanks! International development work made my world smaller.